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I feel like im crazy because i made up my own fantasy world in my mind….. In my fantasy i have a best friend who i call jeffrey and everyone else in my fantasy world calls him jeff or else he gets embarrassed… In my own little world jeffrey is tall pale with long straight brown hair.. He has a long brown beard, a septum piercing and nipple piercings.. In my fantasy everyday he calls me to wake me up. If i dont answer he calls a sibling to see if im okay and to have them check on me because he fears i have commited suicide. Every now and then ill start to think about how I wish it was real. I want somone who is really close to me… Somone who cares… Someone who makes me feel safe and keeps watch of me… Someone i can cry on. Somone who likes me but dosent open up easliy to others. I dont know whats wrong with me… I was depressed awhile ago but i tell myself im not. I just wish i could make friends more easliy. But everone around me could never make me feel safe. Not that my fantasys do, but i wish there was someone bigger than me who is strong, nice, caring and loyal to make me feel safe. I guess i just want to feel safe, protected and loved.

2 thoughts on “Makes me feel crazy

  1. Anonymous says:

    Although I have no fantasy best friend, I can totally understand your feelings. Because sometimes I feel exactly the same. The difference is I’ve kind of given up the hope, and start preparing to live the rest of my life alone.

  2. Anonymous says:

    i always think that the world is never enough for me, because most of the time i just feel lonely and like no one really cares for me like if i’m lost will anyone really be looking? Everyone i guess wants to be safe, protected and loved. Aren’t we all looking for that?

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